High Expectations = Disappointment!

We were shopping last weekend and I realized how much Dania is like me. We were walking through the mall and she was saying "hello" to everybody she passed. Some people answered, while others carried on about their business. The ones who didn't say "hello" completely baffled her. She would ask Daddy or me, "Why they not talk to me?". It's heartbreaking to hear that from a 3 year old and even harder to explain. I'm like that too. Dania gets over it pretty quickly, there is always someone else around the next corner who is likely to say "hi!". For me it takes a bit more time. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and I just wonder how many times you have to be hurt by someone "not saying hello" before it's time to cut your losses and move on. I'm just not sure being friends should actually be hard work. I get you have to put time into everything that's important but, when you aren't getting anything back isn't that a sign to move on?

I've got a very soft heart and truly just want everyone to like me but, I've learned to accept that it isn't always going to happen. I hope that Dania will learn that sooner than I did. Not sure how good I'll be at healing my baby girl's heart the first time it gets broken. I am very blessed that I have a wonderful group of friends. It is sometimes surprising the people who are there for you. It's like that country song, "you find out who you're friends are...". Mine have certainly become more apparent over time and I am so happy for that.

Hope everyone has had a good week. Enjoy the weekend and I'll be back!

Birthdays and Special Phone Calls

Today is my birthday and it's a bittersweet day for me. I had a great day and I love getting spoiled, don't get me wrong but, it is a day when I miss my girlfriend more than usual. Cindy always called me on my birthday, maybe a couple days late or early but, she always called. It might have been months since we'd talked but, I could count on that phone call and looked forward to it. Last year was my first birthday without Cindy and I was amazed at how much I missed the call. I'm sure every year will be the same and I wonder if it will get easier.



Those phone calls were always so special but, like everything, I took for granted that I'd always get them. How many times are we on the phone and doing what we think we do best, multi-tasking?!? We hear about 80% of the conversation, or at least enough that we can answer appropriately but, if we were quizzed on what was said 10 minutes after the fact I'm sure most of us would fail miserably. Since Cindy has passed I try to enjoy each day and be present in every moment. I spent a week with her a couple of months before she passed away and I can tell you every conversation we had over that week because I didn't want to forget a thing. Do I wish I could go back and have a "do-over" on some of those phone calls? ABSOLUTELY!! Unfortunately, we don't often get second chances so, I try to make up for it now and remember what's important.

I had a great birthday with my wonderful family and got spoiled rotten by my husband. I miss Cindy and wish I could pick up a special phone to give her a call just to have that one last phone call. My birthday wish this year is that I don't take anything for granted - life is too short and you never know what tomorrow will bring. Enjoy your week everyone and I'll be back again soon!