Two Years Later...

It is hard to believe that it has been two years since Cindy passed away.  I still have many moments where I just want to pick up the phone and talk to her, I miss her so much.  Cindy was such a wonderful person and I know there are a lot of people missing her as much as I do.  Cindy was one of the few people I knew that lived her life with no regrets.  I was lucky enough to be able to spend some time with her before she died and those moments are very important to me. 

When Cindy was first diagnosed with breast cancer my marriage was falling apart before my eyes at the same time.  When I got the phone call from Cindy about her diagnosis it put my life into perspective and I chose not to tell her about my problems.  They didn't seem that important at the time.  About 6 months later, we were talking on the phone and she asked what was bugging me.  I tried to blow it off and make it like I was just having a bad day but, unfortunately she knows me better than that and pestered me until I finally told her what was happening.  She was not very happy with me for keeping that from her.  The next week a card arrived telling me to keep my chin up, things would get better.  Here was Cindy going through chemotherapy and radiation and she took the time to send me a card just to make me feel better.  That was just the kind of girl she was!  It is one of my favorite memories but, there are many more!!

I am so glad I got to have the time with her before she died, we talked a lot and I tried my best to say everything I needed to say.  I miss her terribly and I'm not sure that will ever go away.  I know it gets easier with time but, I still would rather have her here with us!  I know Heaven is a better place with her in it and I'm glad she isn't suffering anymore.

I miss and love you my friend, I hope you somehow know how much.  Enjoy this snowy weekend everyone!!

Quick Update on Mom!

My Dad called about 20 minutes after I posted my last blog so here is the update!

Mom's surgery went well and the obstruction is not cancer.  She had her appendix removed MANY years ago and apparently scar tissue had formed then attached to her bowel causing it to kink and, there you have it, bowel obstruction.  They had to remove about a foot of her bowel but, they were able to reconnect it so she shouldn't have any more problems. 

I'm just so glad things went well and now she's on the road to recovery.  I'll keep you posted on how she is doing.  Hope everyone is having a great night!

Mom

Have you ever just had one of those weeks?!? My Dad called me Monday and told me Mom was in the hospital.  She'd been sick since Saturday and they finally admitted her to the ER(she was there Saturday & Sunday and was sent home being told she had a stomach flu?!?).  The hospital had no empty beds so she was in the ER until yesterday when she was admitted to a bed.  Today Dad called and she is having surgery as we speak.  I'm sure I've mentioned this in my other blogs but, it is hard to be so far from home.  I love my Dad but, I never get enough information from him so, I never really know what's truly going on.  He knows I'm a worry-wart so he tries to keep the details from me.  What I do know is that Mom has a bowel obstruction and an infection.  She had a bout of diverticulitis a year and a half ago so, if the infection is in the same area they may have to re-sect some of her bowel.  I think the surgery may be partly exploratory just so they can find out what is going on.  My biggest worry is what is obstructing her bowel.  I'm sure it's not normal but, my mind always seems to go to the worst case scenario.  I'm trying to stay positive and send her lots of positive thoughts but, it is so hard when I'm so far away.  I hope the surgery is successful and Mom will feel better soon.  I'll keep you all posted.

Must run and get lunch into my children.  Just want Mom to know her West Coast family is thinking of her and sending all their love to Noni!!  xoxo

Big Day!!

Today was a big day for everyone!  Dania and Cayden had their first day at their new dayhome.  Dania had a great day and seemed to settle right in to what will be her new routine starting in January.  Daddy said she was not happy to leave, that has to be a good sign, right?!  Cayden had a bit harder of a time but, I'm sure he will adjust just fine.  He was pretty sad in the morning but, had started warming up to everyone by the afternoon.  He just wanted to play hard to get, wonder if that will carry on into his teenage years, LOL!! 

I have to admit I shed a few tears myself, it was just so quiet in the house.  I was emptying the dishwasher and I was trying to be so quiet putting everything away when I remembered there were no kids sleeping.  It's funny how we get so caught up in our routine that we hardly notice when there is a change in it.  What is it they say about taking time to stop and smell the roses?!?  At that instant I knew I needed to start getting out of my routine and enjoying every moment.  Looking forward to enjoying the day with them tomorrow.

Today was a big day for me, too.  Today was the last day of my first four weeks of booty camp which meant it was time to be measured.  I was worried I wouldn't see any changes but, I've actually made some progress in four weeks so I'm very pleased.   I'm enjoying the classes and, even though there are times I don't think I'm going to make it, I truly can't wait to get to the next class.  We did a fitness "test" on our first day and then we did one today and I think all of us noticed the change.  I love the way I feel when I finish the class and know that I've made it through one more!  So, four more weeks to go and I'm anxious to see the progress I'll make.

Hope everyone is looking forward to a great weekend!